The girl who could feel nothing . Continued...

The girl who could feel nothing . Continued...Part 11 (I think I missed out Part 9 but … ahh; fuck it – it never existed.)

I found what I wanted. Clean, discreet, never asked for I.D and had WiFi. Now for operation paint job -

'Hi Hans, I am Veronica Schmidt.' I flicked my shoulder length red hair over my black leather jumpsuit. 'I am here to give you the blow job . Ahh - I mean paint job.'

(Of course this is all in German, but since most of you peasants reading this would not have a clue, - I translate it.)

'Holy fucking shit! That is a Lotus Esprit!'

Such a clever boyo hey. 'Yes, well done, it is your job to repaint it.'

'But, but, Frau Schmidt, as I explained, we are very busy. Maybe next week?'

I hate being fucked about. Time to take control. Grabbing him by the throat I had his head touching the ceiling.

'Listen Fritz..erm Hans (Fuck it, the Germans all have only two names), See this? It is 15k Euros. All yours if you do as I want and, if you lucky, I might jerk you off. Get my message?'

Oddly, I had to let him go into his own pool of urine so he could catch his breath and try to answer. 'Now, here is an exact list of the paint you will use. Okay?'

Looking at the list – 'Frau Schmidt – 10kg of shredded pure silver? Where do I get that? And I do not even recognise most of these chemicals you want to mix into the paint!'

'The silver is in the boot, tosspot. Just follow the recipe and I see you in 48 hours. Oh, and give me the keys to your car.'

Getting the silver was a real hoot. I had stopped off in Munich at a coin shop. Whilst they ran around finding all sorts of crap coins and a couple of bars to make up the weight, I simply helped myself to some rarities worth about 50k. Not a bad exchange. I simply pocketed it all (hah- hah – such fun writing this memoir. My pants were now worth a fortune... lol.) But, I have plans for that little stunt.

With a couple of days to kick my heels – well, what does girls do? We go...SHOPPING – again, Tra-la lah! I needed some new shoes.

The girl who could feel nothing - 3

Chapter 3.

Okay. After a couple of days of boredom , I rock up at Porsch HQ. (And no, I did not torch my hotel.)

'Ahh Frau Schmidt, welcome'

'Cut the crap Fritz, what is the score?'

Of course I did not say this in English but for the idiots reading this. I keep it simple...

He was sweating a lot. Tough tittie hey. Not often you meet a two metre tall killing machine in high heels.

'We had to replace the gear box. But please, at no extra cost.'

'And – go on.' I was about to fuck the mother fucker stupid if he had damaged my baby.

'You now have 7 forwards gears. The car has a speed, above its dial limits, of close to 300kmh.

Ahhhhh sex on four wheels...

'And the other extras?'

'Ja, Frau Schmidt, we replaced the car stereo with surround sound with MP3 player, GPS navigation and installed a second fuel tank.'

I noticed that Fritzy boy was trembling a bit but also his little soldier was prodding at his trousers.

'So, all covered by my 50 k?,' as I gave his groin a quick tickle with finger nails that could rip his little eggy eggs out of the sacky in seconds if need be. 'Now give me the fucking keys.' …
-

I was heading south. I had this terrible desire to kill people who annoy me. Shit loads of them.
Still, small problem, My Lady (so I had called the Lotus) was not exactly an unobtrusive vehicle. (Now that is an understatement!) It did not take long before some Polzei idiots are on my tail as I simply stuck in the fast lane on the autobahn.

'Wah – Wah' – flashing lights – the lot. I fancied some fun and I had still not got My Lady out of fifth. So I pull into the middle lane and let them pull up. This is at about 170kmh. They start making hand signs for me to pull over. (Three pulls in 25 words!)I give them the finger and let My Lady roar...

Blah blah – left them for dust etc (which is impossible on a tar road), and the bloody watch starts chirping again. I had to eat. I pull into a autobahn stop. Well, well, they have a McDonald’s. I must laugh. I gather eating their shit is about as nice as eating your own. I actually had a job in one of them at London Bridge five years ago. 'They' had arranged it.

I lasted a day. Well actually, 90 minutes. I was flipping cardboard burgers and the manger comes over -

'We pay you to use both hands, so please take the one in your pocket out and use it.'

I did, I used it to grab the back of his head and shove into the French fries fryer (cool writing hey).

What is that expression? 'Kicking up stink'. Since I can not smell, I gather he must have stunk a lot as he had defecated in three seconds and man, did he do some kicking. No big deal. I had no intention of drowning him. Although his head was a bit of a mess when I pulled him out. As usual, 'They' covered it all up and crispy face will be on the list for a transplant...

Back on the road and the watch happy, I needed to disappear. No point in checking into fancy hotels. A quick look on the internet I found what I wanted. Some B and B in a dead end dump and crucially, a car respraying firm. Why? I had a plan...

David Bowie – RIP

David Bowie – RIP

It does not come more tragic than this. It does not matter what news channel I flick through, German, American, Sky or BBC – the world is stunned.

Hard to believe really.

I recall in Gokwe, I was returning to Gokwe town in a Landy and ahead of me was Alan Golden. He had a cassette player. He tied down the send on the radio and I had the pleasure of listening to Aladdin Sane till the batteries ran out!

Then – a few years later I am in Norwich, UK, shacked up with a girl called Heather who was 7 years older than me. One day we are listening to Bowie and she came out with -
'I had a dinner date with him once, when he was still David Jones.'

Turns out that was that.

And, besides, I have loads of his albums – I was lucky to see him in concert – twice. AND – I still have the tickets.

Bad news for the world of music... But, he will live for ever.

I love this one (among hundreds), -

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IN1h5av2Bj0

The girl who felt nothing - or feeled nothing. Who cares?

All ad-lib . total freestyle and  no attempt at editing. Just make it up as I drink beer. Allah Akbar!

(If anyone finds this to be offensive - I am delighted! That was the plan!)

Chapter Two -

Mi 5 or 6 HQ – yeah. What a bunch of tossers. Still, with time on my hands whilst they converted the Lotus and being now 50k lighter, I went shopping. Well, that is what girls do, right?

First stop was at a pharmacy, known in German as an Apotheke. As I speak the ex Third Reich language (along with about 6 more – I mean, what else do you do all day at home? Sit on Facebook and send pictures of cats to a load of brain deads?), and I needed some bullshit.

As usual I made a bee line to the obvious dyke behind the counter. I needed stuff for a bit of minor sugary and after some crap about a small wound in my cute little pooch's leg that I wanted to sew up myself as I am a highly qualified nurse and can't afford the vet etc etc – I got what I needed. And her phone number – which was promptly binned.

Next – I have class and there was no way I am going to some filthy bog hole where junkies shoot up – nah. 5 star hotel for me. Two nights.

'Do you have a credit card?' asked the bloke is a very Syrian sounding attempt of German, at the Hilton front desk. (Well, it wasn't exactly going to be the back desk – that is the tradesman’s entrance.) 'We need one and also your passport, before we give you a room.'

I need this shit like a bullet hole I would put through his head. I looked about. Okay – CCTV. Plan 'B'.

'See this oh skint Arab fucker, 5k in cash. Your alternative is I take you outside and snap your neck, hack your body into bits and feed it to my pet guinea pigs.'

He got the message and I was soon ushered into a rather fancy room. Nice indeed. But I had to do a little operation on myself.

Shoving your left elbow into micro wave oven after cancelling all the safety rubbish is all well and good but leaves the skin a bit crispy. I sorted that out but just to be on the safe side I decided to dig the GPS chip out. No big deal. Pissed a bit of blood but sewed that up and then had a look in the mini-bar.

Ahh – now booze and me is a big problem. Last time I got wasted, and I mean seriously wasted, was a couple of years ago...

Some bloke had chatted me up at Tescos checkout. Nice enough, looked like a bit of David Beckham mixed with that Rico bloke from 'Star Troopers'. He was quite amusing. Invites me to a pub – blah- blah. A few glasses of wine and I am not thinking straight.

Well, next thing he is humping and pumping, cooing and moaning away between my legs and I am thinking the ceiling needs painting.

'Oh, excuse me,' between his shouts of adoration, 'can we have break. I need a fag.'

I opened the window. Lit a smoke and called him over – still with his little man at attention.

'Look at that skyline. Is it not wonderful?'

'Yes' he replied, shortly followed by a scream. Ahh no big deal. It was only one floor and there was a rose bush to break his fall.

The cops just took him away. I was untouchable. But back to where I am -

Hmm – I was not in the mood to go on the piss. Just a quick flick of fingers soon dismantled the daft security on the windows of the hotel room. Unplugging the fridge, I threw it out. Drinks and all from the 27^th floor. Much to my delight it ploughed into the top of an arriving Taxi to reception. I hoped they liked their drinks shaken but not stirred.

Yeah. a lot of panic broke out. I just leaned out the window and watched the peasants run around like ants with their pants on fire. And talking about fire – I was already bored and wondered if torching the place would cheer me up?

Gwad German TV is so boring. Flick about. Some news report about a fridge landing on a taxi. Flick – the rise and fall Adolf Hitler , big fucking deal, flick, ahh BBC, a documentary about mad dog Gahdafffi, flick – ahh, that is better, some whales getting blown up by the slitty eyes as research- bored – flick. Porn. Oh please. Flick and wow this is so cool.

The girl who felt nothing

The girl who could feel nothing

I am 27 now. I feel nothing. Not emotionally. That was never a problem, but my nervous system registers no pain, no touch, no taste, no smell- nothing at all. it is a rare phenomenon. To live with it - yeah - try to imagine. Sex? great - fall in love with someone but there is no ...no nothing beside that desire of love. So I gave up.

But. it was not long before my parents concluded at 3 months I was a freak. I mean - I did not cry at all. She had to stuff her tit in my mouth just to feed me.

I feel no hunger, no pain, no thirst. Nothing physical. At 5 I was taken away. I cried- yes I can cry. Emotions - that I have

They taught me. Eat, shit, just about all bodily functions that my body had no natural ...well, thoughts about.

I made mistakes. Often. The scars on my hands prove it. Not having any feeling of pain nor sense of smell, it took the cook in the canteen to drag me off the glowing hot plate.

I repaired. The surgery of course did not hurt.

Nothing does - nothing but emotions. That I have. Repetition of the obvious statement as I said previously. But I learnt. I had to. How else was I to survive?

So,sent out into the world - I had adapted. Kept my eyes and ears open and hands away. The brain trained to what was and was not dangerous.

All kids learn this but when you lack the senses - a problem.

I muddled along with some stupid jobs. Crazy shit.

Tried to deliver newspapers but could not feel them in my hands...

In the end - the state just popped me in a little pad, all paid for. The scientists came around at least twice a year to take blood samples and chatter some crap and life was pretty much a complete fuck up. Sure, I had a fuck. But it was as exciting as eating a bar of chocolate = nothing.

It makes no difference at all what I eat. Could be mud for all know.

But - on the 23rd of June 2016 a man knocked on my door..

Flash the badge, MI5 or 6 - I didn't give a shit by now. I have been poked, examined, questioned so long in my life about my 'disability', I wondered why I had not topped myself!

The girl who could feel nothing . Continued...

I had just got back from my fitness centre. I wasn't feeling knackered at all. How could I?

Besides the point, so I open the door. Well, I wasn't exactly going to open the window and shout 'Wat Ya want Ya fucking refugee scroungers.'

The first thing that caught not one eye but both of them was what was behind the bloke. Parked up on the kerb (illegal) in front of my pad was – a god-damn metallic gold Lotus Esprit! I haven’t seen one of those since that queer bloke in flairs ran around calling himself Jimmy Bond or something daft like that. Oh, hang on, didn't that bird with a mouth so large she could swallow a planet, drive one in the film 'Pretty Whore'. Can't remember.

Anyway – so this bloke, about a head taller than the car, says to me-

'Hello Veronica.'

'Who the fuck are you and how do you know my name.' Says Veronica. That is me. Not to good at creative wring but giving it a bash.

'May I present myself'

Ahh – I have heard this one before. The bloke looked like a complete clown. Not surprising since he was dressed like that twat who flogs plastic burgers to obese children – except this version looked like it had been dragged through a barb wire fence whilst intoxicated on three bottles of gin.

He hands me a card. Before I even look at it -
'Is that your car?'

'But of course.'

Wow – I wonder if it can go underwater. I look at the card and snort snot and gob onto the pavement.

What is the world coming to? He must be a lunatic. For a start the card is self printed and rather badly -

Tot Al Plunker . Secretive Agent

Then he winked. I hadn’t seen a wink like that since Sunny fucked up everyone with Will Smith in 'I Robot'. Pitch black eyes now stared at me.

'I think you better come in Professor.'

The girl who could feel nothing . Continued...Part 3

'You looking good girl.' As the clown removed the stupid wig and red nose.

Looking good? Hah – what for an understatement. I am every man’s dream. Mix up a dozen babes from Hollywood, churn them out and you get me – one problem – I am a freak.

'How are your feet? I 'heard' about it. Can I see?'

I wasn't bothered. This man had kept me sane as a kid in the 'special place'. So I slowly pulled my socks off. There were still some sticky bits, so I had to be careful.

'Healing nicely. What made you do it Veronica?'

Good question. Boredom I suppose. I had set the treadmill at the gym to the hardest marathon and broke the world record. It was only when I went to shower that I realised my trainers were full off blood from burst blisters. Off to the hospital.

'Whatever Professor. What do you want from me?'

'Do you have a problem being raped multiple times? Tortured, beaten and generally kicked about?'

Huh – what kind of question is that?

'Sure, I could not think of a better thing to do on a Sunday walk in Hyde Park – cut the crap Professor. What do you want from me? Oh, excuse me, can I offer you a cheeseburger fresh from the microwave?' I knew that would raise his hackles.


The girl who could feel nothing . Continued...Part 4

'Veronica, I or 'we', would like to give you a form of employment suited to your...erm...specialities. There is no pay, we just cover your expenses. But first you must go to a special school to get you well equipped for the task. Are you interested?'

'How is your cheeseburger? Can I zap you a quick coffee? Milk and sugar?' Man oh man – hard to believe that this is how it all started. 'Yeah- yeah – so what is this wonderful new unpaid job? Must I learn to kill people?'

'Actually...yes. And quite a lot of them.'

Well, I had to giggle. 'Does that include Donald Trump?'

'Perhaps – but he may fall on his own sword anyway. No – we have other targets for you.

The girl who could feel nothing . Continued...Part 5

'You sending me, after training, into the Middle East and eliminate the hierarchy of all the nutters there?'

'What? No, no Veronica. We are bombing those mad fuckers into oblivion at enormous cost to the tax payer. Your job is more sublime and will save the planet from a disease worse than Ebola. I have a list of the top priorities to be exterminated to save the Western hemisphere.'

Well. I must admit – I was interested. 'Okay- shoot away.' (Excuse the pun.)

'No 1 – Justin Bieber.'

'Huh – who the fuck is that?'

'Not your problem, Veronica, just put a bullet between his eyes. No 2 – Simon Cowell. He is bad news and pollutes our children.'

Oddly, I had no problem with that as I thought he was a right twat. I will give him an X factor right on his forehead. Okay. 'Next'

'Ja Ja Binks at number 3.'

'Hold on a bit. You want me to kill a computer generated image? Are you people for real?'

The Professor ignored me and cackling insanely, continued -

'At number 4, my ex wife. At number 5, my latest wife. And at number 6 my future wife.'

Hmm – I was starting to think second and third thoughts about this job offer...

'I presume you have seen the Matrix films?'

By now I was lying on the couch. Real fake leather. The watch claimed I was relatively stable so having an intelligence above Sharon Stones and being far better looking -

'If you think you are going to plug me into a computer, integrate me with a load of cyber bits, you have more chance of getting a blow job from Nancy next door. Who – just for your information – is transsexual and does them for free..'

The Professor sighed a deep sigh. (Awful writing but great fun making it so.)

'Veronica – I have one other offer. I understand you may be reluctant to be integrated into a cyber world, but do you fancy shooting people with a laser guided rifle from the back of an oil freighter off the coast of Somalia?'

Before I could reply a small explosion erupted. (Most explosions do – as a matter of fact.) I had farted! The Professor seemed pleased.

'Good girl,' as he waved his hand in front of his nose, 'Your guts are working well. So – what is it going to be?'

The girl who could feel nothing . Continued...Part 8

I was getting seriously bored by now. I stood up, went into the kitchen bay, took a 12 inch butcher's knife and plunged it through his skull so hard it came out through his throat. Then I had a panic attack... Fuck, fuck, fuck. I had forgotten to turn on the smart phone and film this for YouTube.
Bloody shame as his twitching death throes matched the music I had on – 'Tiger Feet' by some knobs that had two hit wonders.

Still – all considered – things were cool. I had the keys for the Lotus, a quick frisk of the wallet came up with a load of credit cards (all with the pin written on the back), 2000 in Euros and I am out of here...

The girl who could feel nothing . Continued...Part 9

Of course, first thing was to use the cards and pull as much dosh from any machine I came across.
The Lotus is a slug. Two litre of tired engine! I ask you. Still, with almost 200 k Euros in cash, with a passport that recognises I do not exist - there was only one place to go to. Stuttgart.

Why?

The girl who could feel nothing . Continued...Part 10

Weird, I was taught to bath and shave my armpits and legs. Armpits because it was 'unhygienic' and I may smell bad, and my legs because it was not considered 'ladylike'. Considering I could not smell a thing and I had as much chance of pulling a bloke as tickling my own clitoris, I thought this was a waste of state sanctioned razor blades.

But maybe when I pulled into Porsche HQ, after a rather long tedious drive, slapped 50k cash on the desk, did I care if I stunk like a skunk? The money smells clean.

A simple job. Remove the crap engine, shove in a Porsche engine boosting at least 300 HP, rig up the chassis to take the torque, but in no way change the design.

Oh man – they slobbered at the challenge.

Chapter Two -

Mi 5 or 6 HQ -

The Return of The Gokwe Kid

The Return of The Gokwe Kid

It just takes a few fools - but I admit, I have been lazy and spent too much time hiding on Facebook - although with hindsight- I could have posted a lot of my hilarious stuff up here.

Confused? I refer to this blog. I have ignored it for so long...

But in my defence - the massacre and my connection to it did fuck me in the head a lot.

Time to get back into that weird world of my head once more -

I am back.

And we start with this -

What the fuck is this idiot going on about?

http://lastoftherhodesians.tumblr.com/